In August a person I had been speaking to suggested I take a 6 month "leave of absence" from the dating world. When she suggested the idea I thought to myself "Is she serious, I've had a boyfriend or seriously dated someone since I was 14". Later that day her suggestion stuck with me and I started to think about my past relationships and where I was right then. I thought about what lead me to that point in which I needed to speak with her. I thought about everything I had experienced in relationships and how it left me.
I was broken, torn and empty. I felt like I didn't know who I was or how I was going to pick up the pieces of my broken heart and failed relationships. I didn't know what to do therefore I agreed to take the 6 month "leave of absence". What did this mean? What did it consist of? I decided I wouldn't date, hang out with, kick with men unless it was in a group setting and not a double date type of thing.
I am taking this time to develop and nurture my relationship with God. Who is God to me? How does God love me? What is God's purpose for my life? In nurturing my relationship with God I will learn how to have relationships with people i.e. family, friends, co-workers, men, women, etc. Setting myself apart from the thing that has distracted me the most "men" and setting myself to God will make God the focus of my life.
I have openly shared this decision with many people my mom, sister, exes, friends, men, women, etc. Not realizing how my decision would affect someone else I was surprised when a friend IM'd me and said she was going to do the exact same thing from listening to me. WOW I am being a Culture Shaper (smile).
I decided to blog my experiences and challenges to share with women and men. While I have made a conscious decision to take this path there are challenges I still face. I don't want to present this Holy Roley persona. I want to be transparent and share the good the bad and ugly. There are some days I don't want to do this. There are some days I want to just meet up with a guy and watch a movie. There are times I do fall and make mistakes. I want to share those things with women, with you.
I thank you (Kiki) for the inspiration to start a blog and agreeing to take this journey. I say it has only been a month and a half but I'm enjoying it and looking forward to God revealing more to me and our relationship growing stronger.
I was broken, torn and empty. I felt like I didn't know who I was or how I was going to pick up the pieces of my broken heart and failed relationships. I didn't know what to do therefore I agreed to take the 6 month "leave of absence". What did this mean? What did it consist of? I decided I wouldn't date, hang out with, kick with men unless it was in a group setting and not a double date type of thing.
I am taking this time to develop and nurture my relationship with God. Who is God to me? How does God love me? What is God's purpose for my life? In nurturing my relationship with God I will learn how to have relationships with people i.e. family, friends, co-workers, men, women, etc. Setting myself apart from the thing that has distracted me the most "men" and setting myself to God will make God the focus of my life.
I have openly shared this decision with many people my mom, sister, exes, friends, men, women, etc. Not realizing how my decision would affect someone else I was surprised when a friend IM'd me and said she was going to do the exact same thing from listening to me. WOW I am being a Culture Shaper (smile).
I decided to blog my experiences and challenges to share with women and men. While I have made a conscious decision to take this path there are challenges I still face. I don't want to present this Holy Roley persona. I want to be transparent and share the good the bad and ugly. There are some days I don't want to do this. There are some days I want to just meet up with a guy and watch a movie. There are times I do fall and make mistakes. I want to share those things with women, with you.
I thank you (Kiki) for the inspiration to start a blog and agreeing to take this journey. I say it has only been a month and a half but I'm enjoying it and looking forward to God revealing more to me and our relationship growing stronger.
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Congrats on your first offical day of blogging. I am so proud of you for taking a major life changing and growth step. Man what you doing is going to really trnasform lives. If the book impacted you in this magnitude, then i must get it, actually i'm searching now for it.
Congrats on your new journey. Sometimes it does not take a life changing event for us to see the light. Sometimes the light is right under your nose. I know that you are a strong person and you will make it. IF you fully commit to your decision, the results will be incredible. Keep you head up and keep praying. When times get hard, and they will, don't break pray and take a cold shower. When times get hard, don't break, put in a movie and hug your pillow. Call me if you need strength....
one of the most challenging (yet immensely gratifying) things i've ever done was say NO to dating for a while (it lasted 6 months). it allowed me to focus on my relationship with God with out interference and helped me to put a lot into perspective. Now i rely on His will & purpose for my life...what i thought i was doing before the fast, but really wasn't. and i didn't see that until i stopped, stood back and took a look at how i'd been operating. this is something i know you can do, you are already an incredible person, this will be a great experience for u. love ya!
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