4gotten Provision

I’ve been dreading looking at my checking account because I knew I was in the negative. I started a new job in August after almost 9 months of not working. During that time I did get unemployment and I did have some money saved. In May my unemployment stopped and the money I had saved started dwindling. I couldn’t find a job to save my life. I was behind on so many bills so when I started working every check I have received has gone to paying off LARGE amounts of money I owe.

The minute I would get my check my money was already gone so then it left me with very little to live off of. I looked at my account this morning and the same way I responded the last time is the same way I responded today with a sigh. I sigh of disgust and frustration. I wondered when will I be able to see above water.

What I was quickly reminded of is how God has provided for me during these times. Although my account was negative a few days after I got paid I have been able to eat, drive, dance, laugh and play I mean the list can go on and on.

Why was I so quick to worry?
Why had I so quickly forgotten what God had done for me and what God is currently doing for me?

I plan to keep on reminding you of these things—even though you already know them and are standing firm in the truth.” (2 Peter 1:12 NLT)

I am a facilitator of a small group of women at Awakenings Movement. I have asked everyone to write down their prayer request in their journals and mark them off as they are answered. This way they will know and believe that God is still there and he GOT YOU.

I guess I can say I suggested something that I need to do more than anything.

Thank you God, for showing me how to lead by first being an example. How should I expect people to trust and follow if I am not trusting you and following you. Thank you God for providing for me despite how things may appear. Forgive me for not trusting you, worrying and questioning. You said it and you have proven to me so many times.