Today marks the 6 month of my consecration. It is amazing what I have experienced these few months. My relationship with God has grew exponentially and I have learned things about myself that I didn’t know before. Each month there has been themes and lessons which pushed me to grow in certain areas. Many of the lessons I am still learning and processing but I can say I have grown.
I will admit the consecration hasn’t been an easy one and I have done a lot of griping and complaining. There are areas I could have resisted and I’m sad to say I didn’t. At church on the “truth communication” was on being MUTE. I identified with being emotionally mute. The analogy that was used for emotionally mute was the TV (putting it on mute)... So why do we put the TV on mute... one example that was given.. was as a child when you are doing your homework and you want to still watch TV you put the TV on mute. You try to watch the TV and do your homework at the same time only to discover.. both are sucking. The other thing is you don't get the full experience from the TV because you can't hear it. He talked about singlehood and how God has called many ppl in this community to be single but they are trying to do follow their calling and put a relationship on mute.
This is where I come in. I have been called to singlehood right now and to consecrate myself and not date or hang out with men. I have been trying to continue my consecration while entertaining the idea of a relationship. In doing this I find myself frustrated and surfing this emotional wave.
I was talking to a close friend of mine last night and it hit me, I shared with her, when God calls you to be in a relationship there is no turning back, like that’s it, yall are moving forward. We really need to enjoy EVERYTHING that comes with being SINGLE…SINGLE.. like single not dating single.
In my last month I want to REALLY embrace all the wonderful things of not dating. Many of the principals I have learned will go from a 6 month consecration into a life style.
I will admit the consecration hasn’t been an easy one and I have done a lot of griping and complaining. There are areas I could have resisted and I’m sad to say I didn’t. At church on the “truth communication” was on being MUTE. I identified with being emotionally mute. The analogy that was used for emotionally mute was the TV (putting it on mute)... So why do we put the TV on mute... one example that was given.. was as a child when you are doing your homework and you want to still watch TV you put the TV on mute. You try to watch the TV and do your homework at the same time only to discover.. both are sucking. The other thing is you don't get the full experience from the TV because you can't hear it. He talked about singlehood and how God has called many ppl in this community to be single but they are trying to do follow their calling and put a relationship on mute.
This is where I come in. I have been called to singlehood right now and to consecrate myself and not date or hang out with men. I have been trying to continue my consecration while entertaining the idea of a relationship. In doing this I find myself frustrated and surfing this emotional wave.
I was talking to a close friend of mine last night and it hit me, I shared with her, when God calls you to be in a relationship there is no turning back, like that’s it, yall are moving forward. We really need to enjoy EVERYTHING that comes with being SINGLE…SINGLE.. like single not dating single.
In my last month I want to REALLY embrace all the wonderful things of not dating. Many of the principals I have learned will go from a 6 month consecration into a life style.
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